life

i just missed the sunset. im sitting on my patio specifically for that, but i just got so consumed by myspace that i missed the moment. i can still see the pink in the sky off in the distance. i had a date the other night, my first real one since j. it was amazing. he is the nicest boy i've ever been with, and in fact he is not a boy, but a man! he took me to a fancy french restaurant i've been dreaming of going to forever. he knew how to pick the right wine, and poured it for me whenever my glass was getting low. he was the nicest guy i've ever been with. unfortunately he is from wisconsin and left this morning, but not before making it a point to see me one more time last night. he was only in town to set up an audio/visual festival, where musical acts are paired with visual artists for multimedia performances. he curates them in europe, and decided to do the first one ever in the us, right here in la. he also owns a restaurant in wisconsin and is a very prolific man.

my life is much more exciting since i quit my job. i am in love with not having a routine. i feel like i am actually busier...i guess bc i'm not wasting a majority of my day at a desk and am actually getting shit done. i met with a photographer today who wants me to be her fashion consultant. it could be very lucrative, but i have to really work my ass off and utilize my fashion contacts to really get her some new clients. i guess i will be doing that, freelance writing, and anything else that could serve as supplementary income. i like this life. i am enriching it with all my extra time, reading and watching films again. i'm trying to set up a puppy dog band practice for sunday, but i think t is mad or upset at me or something bc i went on a date. it's probably just my imagination and i should get over myself and stop thinking these things, but i wish he knew how much i missed him and how important he is to me. i love him, but i am afraid i played it all wrong with him and now our window has passed. anyway, i shouldn't even be writing in here. i have so much to do, but i could never forget my dear blog.