aaaaahhhhhhhhh! i am kind of mad right now but i know the person i want to yell at is probably asleep. this sux.

i discovered an almost empty bottle of vodka in my freezer and forgot how much I LOVE IT. they can say i have a drinking prob but fuck em.

i just want something cool to happen right now. i feel like i want to call j and he might pick up bc he is in the uk and is prob waking up right now. it's weird that i am thinking about him again but i am.

i don't know what to do really. i can't write bc i'm too drunk. i guess all i can do is lay back and read murakami and will the phone to ring. i don't even care who it is, i just feel like i need to talk to somebody.